Why do I write?

There are three reasons why I decide to write. Firstly, I'm not keen-witted both in writing properly and in English. Secondly, I seek an opportunity that may help me to get out from my comfort zone. Thirdly, based on the quotes from Anne Frank "Verba Volant Scripta Manent" which means "Spoken words fly away, written words remain". Writing is one of the ways to be remembered. All of those occasions push me to do writing.


I declare that writing is something hard to deal with since it's been a long time for me not to live up again my ability in writing. Choosing the proper words in Bahasa Indonesia is pretty easier than in English and my poor English still becomes a big issue to develop. In addition, I've got an abstract brain which means I have a different way of thinking from other people. Since I was a kid, my father told me that I'm special from other kids. I started drawing people from the toe to the head, it supposed to be from the head to the toe. My older sister added when I was about 4 years old, I drew a twin tower that between the tower there was a big bridge that connected those towers. Hmm... it seems like twin towers in Malaysia. However, I'm still being grateful for having such this kind of brain.  

Talking about comfort zone, everyone has their zones and sometimes their backs are too heavy to move. Yeah, I used to be one of them. I used to be someone who enjoyed my life watching anime all day and avoided contact with outside world, even with my family. I ensure  I used to be an introvert and weird. In 2013, I moved to Depok alone by my self in the name of pursuing my dream, the city near with Jakarta. There's no comfort zone in here, I have to prepare everything, nobody care besides my family. It taught me that "You get what you give" which means what you do to others will affect how they will treat you later. So, you have to leave good footprints to their heart. "People will not remember what you say, but they will remember how you made them feel" exactly like this quote. Back to writing, writing is not my comfort zone especially writing my own journal. Even though I'm an extrovert based on the result from 16personalities(dot)com, I have an introvert side. I do not like exposing and adjusting my self to others moreover someone I don't close to. But sometimes, I can do it to break the ice. I can be crazy, weird, shameless to someone that I trust and I'm comfortable with. 

LOL while writing this, I'm laughing at my self. This is the proof of how abstract I am (too many things that I want to say in my head). So, writing can help me to get out from my comfort zone and to cut off unnecessary things to write.

One day, I'll lay in the ground with the tombstone named "RIP peacefully". Yeah, we all will be dead, soon or sooner, nobody knows. I want to do something that can change the world even a little bit, the world that I mean is other people's lives. By writing, may someone out there who unlucky enough opening this blog can smile brightly like right now ;) or my granddaughters can read their grandma's writing such this silly thing and laugh at me in my funeral.  

Before ends this journal, I want to give you a quote from my favourite book 

"Before talking heavy issues, do some heavy laughing first"- Andrew Bienkowski

Don't be too serious!

Depok, 8th May 2018
I'm writing this in my comfort zone